Farewell with love 2014. I am not one to throw the passing years out the window and say good riddance. The positive soul in me won’t allow me to do that. Even knowing what a hard dark year 2014 was for me I can’t say good riddance.
I learned a lot about myself this past year. I learned that I have an infinite amount of strength, which I already knew, but it was sorely tested. I was definitely put to the test physically, mentally and emotionally. I injured my back in November 2013, and I started my physiotherapy right away.
But in January it really kicked into full gear. With Aqua-therapy that left me crying when I got home, and physiotherapy almost every day. I was also starting ergo therapy. It was tough, and there were many times when I wanted to quit. My therapists were amazing; they were patient, and supportive.
They loved my positivity. In their line of work I was told there are not many people like me. All through my hard sessions, I always had a smile and my motto when they would ask me to try new things, or to push harder in certain exercises was ” I’ll try.” I would never say I couldn’t unless I knew I really couldn’t.
It was easy to try because I knew there would be an end result but when the end result was nowhere to be seen month after month, it was really frustrating. I was getting stronger, and I was able to get some mobility back, but it was taking a long time and I was in constant huge amounts of pain everyday.
Pain is a funny thing. Chronic pain plays with your mind. Some mornings I would wake up and feel great, only to have a dull constant ache return, moments after getting out of bed. I would focus more on the few minutes without pain, than the rest of the day with it.
It’s mind over matter, and I made myself believe it. I learned to focus on the things I could do, little by little everyday rather thank focus on all the things I couldn’t do. It was a positive shift of perception that any of us can learn to do. On the days where I was depressed, I stayed in bed, cuddled with my kids, laughed with my husband, talked to friends both on and offline.
Although my chronic pain hasn’t changed, I am still working hard to get to a better place. I’ve started PiYo, what could be better for my core and back than a combination of Pilates and yoga? Look for my trying a headstand this year! My depression got better as well, for that I am extremely grateful. It was situational, and when I took control, it got better.
I say farewell to 2014 with love. I learned a lot about who I am, what I am made of. I learned a lot with the rebranding of my blog. I leaned that I have a lot to offer in terms of social media for brands who want to work with me. I may not have the biggest numbers but I certainly have the biggest positive attitude and heart. With that behind a brand, only the greatest amount of success will be achieved.
How do you feel about the passing year? Do you look back with regret? Or do you let it go, softly, with a smile, knowing you had another year in this beautiful world to love, laugh, and just be where you are?